Bi-Polar

I have felt good today! I have practiced my 'sliding down towards my goal' technique whilst 'focusing my attention on my soul' rather than on my ego and I must say that I am feeling much better as a result. 

I am not very energetic today. It's a lovely day and I have managed to get washed, dressed, coifed and made-up in time for a working pub lunch with my Techno Hubby but that's about it. I am struggling to keep my eyes open and it is not even 6.00pm yet! 

Here I am sitting at my computer, wrestling with the idea that I should have a shower and I should get dressed. As they say in the coaching world, all this shoulding all over myself isn't helping one bit.

Oh Boy! It's one of THOSE days....

I amaze myself. I drive myself up the wall, I frustrate myself, and I occasionally despair of myself, but I do amaze myself. How can my energy fluctuate from near total collapse to near blow-up with such ease and such regularity? I can't quite believe it and it is happening to me so what others would make of it, I don't know.

I am feeling frustrated with myself. I don't seem to be getting anywhere. I don't seem to be doing anything. Life feels aimless and pointless. I find these feelings difficult to bear. I find myself difficult to put up with. In truth, I get on my own nerves.....

So, where do I go from here and what do I do now? I have no idea and it drives me crazy!

If ever there was a financial metaphor for Bi-Polarism, it is the current economic crisis. Not only that but, pleasingly enough for me, the financial world has now proved that it is as crazy as I am.